It is pretty much the only thing that clearly expresses how I feel today...and all weekend for that matter!
I call this the hypochondriac's disease only because that is the look I get from people when I talk to them about how I feel. I have everything! If you have arthritis, I have it in every joint in my body including my chest (costochondritis, the doctor called it)! I have a bladder infection, my gums are infected, I have a sinus infection, and something is wrong with my digestion! I have been throwing up my food because it feels like it just won't digest.
So, I pretty much was in bed and the restroom all weekend. I hate that I can't be an active member of my family and it breaks my heart that I can't be the mother and wife they deserve. Friday, I couldn't and didn't get out of bed; therefore, no one went to school...again! I feel like a heavy sack of pain and misery.
On the bright side, I forced myself to go to work today and I survived through the day with only one minor blow up with a kid. I have to count my blessings in order to get through. I have 5 healthy kids, a husband who hasn't run for the hills yet, and an illness that could be a lot worse!
You are a beautiful person. I know it is hard living with lupus. You are brave. God bless you and your family.
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